Why do you want to be a writer?

Posted on Posted in Before March 1st 2011

Because when I choose to be someone else, I wish to be a writer anyways. Because when I dreamed about do anything with my life, the only thing I want it to do was be a writer, because is the thing that creates the biggest fear in my life.

I when and study to be a lawyer, got my degree, and did the best I could not to write. Even then I want it to be a writer. Then I decided to participate in a research contest, that I tied on first place with someone else, and decide that I need it a radical change, so I don’t write anymore.

I went and did an MBA, move to a different country, and learned a different language. By then I decided that in order to kill the urge to write I need to stop reading, since I didn’t know how to do that, I begin to tell myself to be allowed only to read in English (that I didn’t speak at the time).

I read ‘Tom Sawyer”, with a dictionary, word by word. Until made sense. So the next step was simple, I forbid myself for writing in Spanish. I didn’t have enough domain of the English language to write, so I stopped writing, I stopped reading, and begin crafting a different life. I begin creating a business persona. Move myself from nothing to Sales Manager, and stop reading anything else than business books.

I miss fiction, but I learn as much as I could of business, business books, and more. It was a fun ride, and allow me to get to great places, I was proud, but I miss fiction, and I was afraid to open a fiction book, I knew that years before I leave that road, to never come back.

One day it happen, I read a book, and then another, and then another. Little by little, the dormant writer was waking up. This time, I knew, there was going to be hard to make the writer go away, it was going to be painful, and happiness was in play, my happiness.

So after admitting to myself, that I had choose to be someone else, I begin to do the only thing I want it to do, I begin to Write.

I just finish a novel, technically the first one I send to the world, I submitted to the Amazon Breakthrough Novel Award, and we are waiting.

After years of struggle, mostly internal struggle, I have decide to have the life I want, I am a writer.

So my original question was: Why do you want to be a writer?

In my case is simple, I Want to be a Writer, because I don’t want to be anything else.

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